Greetings Earthlings!
For longer than one year I have been neglecting my poor blog. Life was just too fast sometimes, too painfully slow other times. The thought of "tomorrow I am sure I will do it, I will feel better to do it!" never really got out of my busy and confused mind, but it actually never happened.
It seems that lately, I choosen all wrong paths on my life, exept one: Going abroad.
I am currently living in Espoo, Finland, and to be sincere, I never felt more happy, in spite of being far away from my loved ones. I am incomplete but I still can feel happiness. Now I can understeand how living isolated and bad moments can destroy everything in ourselves: good will, positive attitude, even undestroyable friendships. At the first glace, it looks like everything's gone, that we are living in an empty and cold dark castle, but, at a second and deeper glance, later, we discover that those things were not really gone, but just hiding from our unispired and tired glance.
After a lot of thinking about what to do with our future, we looked like mice trapped in a cage. Certain destructive people really almost achieved their goal. We were literally trapped. But we called it a day and gave up. Gave up being around those destructive people, gave up being exploited in a job that was filled with ignorance, gave up being the mice we turned in. No more. It was more than enough and my faith in humanity was almost lost. But then again, life is rather surprising and on the next couple of months I and my dearest mother Odete had two one way tickets to Helsinki! Risky, I know, but compairing to what we have been through last few years, what the hell, why not? Our life was as bad is it can get and to reach a fulfilling life and happiness we need to make risky choices. May 2nd was the schedualled day. We went away, leaving loved ones behind.
It was a rough trip, with lots of turbulence ( I mean literally!), but we finally got here, with our luggage broken and sick. At midnight we arrived to Helsinki Vantaa Airport and met Laura, a dear friend. I was really happy to meet her and she was really a sweetheart for bringing cat litter sand! Thank you for that one!!
Then went by taxi to Lilja's place. Lilja is my boss here, she gave me an opportunity to show what I value, something that no one in my own country ever did, and that hurts. Makes me think that in Portugal people are really very scared to risk anything, they are too destructive. Of course not all people are like that, I met here some portuguese people that are something else! Really nice people. Well, perhaps was my bad luck while living in Portugal not to cross paths with such nice people.
Talking about Lilja, she is one of the most amazing people I have ever met. Period.
She is a politician, she is a spectacular designer, she has a very good english and japanese, she is beautiful and she has quite an extraordinary personality. She is also an amazing cooker! How can someone do so many things at the same time and still be perfect doing it all? Well, I really don't know, but the answer is: Lilja Tamminen!
I also want to thank to my friend Arto, who is really a sweet and fun person! He really helped me a lot and still does! Helps me feel confortable and at home here in Finland, he is such a bright and very intelligent person! I look up to him!
Last but not least, at all, is my karate sensei Tiago Pedroso. He is one of the best people I have ever met. I feel proud that we can hang out and learn karate with him! He also gave us a chance to feel at home here, not feeling so alone and to exercise!! He is also a person I personally admire, Obrigada! His girlfriend Matleena is also a very beautiful and heart-warming young girl, I really thank all this people for helping me here!
Perhaps many people don't get it, but just some kind words of support and advice and a felt hearted smile can help a lot. At least for me, it does.
Thank you all, my friends!
I also want to say to my friends and family in Portugal that I miss them like hell, thank you for the support!
This post is getting too long and boring for the reader, so, I will leave the "thank you's" for now, in spite of having more people that I still want to thank to!
I do not have a photograph machine, and it's very sad I cannot get to share with you all the beauty I've been seeing all this days. I really love the nature beauty of this country, I think people are really nice and warm, lot's of beautiful smiles! I have always been a positive person, but sometimes I just could not help but being gloomy. Here there is a strange spark in the air that pulls me out from sadness and makes me act very positive, which makes me very happy! I hope Arto can give me the pictures he took of us, when he develops his film! (Yes, analog photography rules guys!!)
I will try on the next post not being so dull and deep, will try to explore the fun side of somethings that happen to me on a daily basis! I will now keep updating my blog!
I hope Ella does too, because I really miss to read her posts, and she is also living abroad, in Madrid, and I would love to hear more things via blog! From what we have been talking, she has some fun material to do lots of interesting posts. So I will keep hoping for "The Puppet Show" to return!
Thanks everyone, I hope you have a very nice Sunday!
Cheers and Blessed be!
Mood: Hopeful and Happy
Song: Nightwish - The Crow, The Owl And The Dove
