The greatest problem...

Greetings Earthlings!

Today I am going to talk about my home country Portugal. Not only bad things, as I usually do, because I am not that blind, though I have my reasons to do so. 

I have been following Portugal news, and as usual, it does not stop mesmerizing me. Let's topic the last events:

• Minister of Finances Gaspar quit his position. Good. What took you so long? Then, I red some disturbing news that, according to journalists, might have something to do with this sudden quit: He and his wife were shopping and got spitted by some people who were also in the same supermarket. What? Really?? What's wrong with you people? Do you think spitting on the face of the minister would actually resolve anything? Well, apparently it did. So, we, humble portuguese people should carry a club with us and go back to live in caves. It would actually save a lot of mortgage money, n'est pas? Well, something to consider... I wonder.
• Our charismatic dear Minister of Defense Paulo Portas (head for the beautiful and christian/conservative party Democratic and Social Centre – People's Party) also quit! Marvelous! But then he regretted quitting. What a shame. It is okay, dear Portas, our beloved Prime Minister Passos Coelho will come up with a new position for you: Vice-Prime Minister. Better? You bet. Cry not. Now let's go back in time for a bit... When was it the last time we had a vice prime minister was from 1983 to 1985, in Mário Soares government, and what a great government that was! *Irony* I was not born in the time, but fortunately I can read and hear older people talking.
• Last, but not least, the most lovely man alive in Portugal, dear Prime Minister Pedro Passos Coelho stated that everything's alright! No political crisis! Well, he really took a weight off my chest, now I can sleep calmer! Thanks a lot! The same goes to our dearest President, which was a very talented prime minister for a decade! (1985 - 1995) who also states everything is alright! Who are we, the powerless people to doubt of you, sir? Look at his smile, he really looks happy and everything is okay, so I guess I can be happy too. *yay*   

President of Banana Republic (oops, Portuguese Republic) Cavaco Silva 

No more ironies now. Really, I would love to know why is our agriculture barely alive?
Portugal has a great weather and soil, and hardworking people to work it, so why does it not work? Oh, I just remember government keeps on cutting subsidies given to agriculture farmers. I knew several that had wine plantations, and they have disadvantage doing so, they do it for passion. Don't you get it, stupid politicians  some portuguese don't work because they can't AFFORD to work!! 

Portugal could export a LOT of products, like wine, olive oil, olives, preserved tuna, preserved sardines, cheese and the list of good quality products goes on forever. Although, when I travel, for example, Japan, I wandered in the Mediterranean food section. Lots of products from Spain, the most of them. Portugal, none. Why? Why is this? I just can't understand. 

What I think is that the portuguese could be a really more united people. It would make things a lot easier. Someone who really loves Portugal, not false patriots like 99% of people who claim themselves as conservative patriots. Yes, because blaming the legalization of gay marriage and immigrants will change our country really fast!

Now, the greatest problem, as the title suggests, is corruption  The government is so crooked that I still wonder if European Union believes portuguese government? Really, are they that blind? Oh, they just don't know how is the portuguese act! 

There are many portuguese people needing help, it would be really necessary for governors to see that. Well, they see but they just look away, like the portuguese saying goes: "Worst than being blind is the one who does not wish to see".

Now you could reasonably ask me: "So, why are you in Finland and not in Portugal? Why not to try to fight for a better country instead of going away?" and I will happily answer:
I generally never give up. But when I do, I really do. Unfortunately I gave up Portugal, my home country. I just don't care anymore. Correction: I care, from afar.

But as long as there is heat and beaches are full, everything's okay, right?...     

As an HUGE off topic I want to thank my cousin Sandra and my aunt Ivone for the birthday surprise, thanks a lot for coming here, will welcome you both with open arms and a lot of "saudade"!

Oh! Tomorrow is my fiancee Laura birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU BABE!!! ;D Mina Rakastan sinua! 

Mood: Surprised
Song: Edguy - King of Fools

Have a great day and blessed be!

Return to the blogosphere!

Greetings Earthlings!

For longer than one year I have been neglecting my poor blog. Life was just too fast sometimes, too painfully slow other times. The thought of "tomorrow I am sure I will do it, I will feel better to do it!" never really got out of my busy and confused mind, but it actually never happened. 

It seems that lately, I choosen all wrong paths on my life, exept one: Going abroad.

I am currently living in Espoo, Finland, and to be sincere, I never felt more happy, in spite of being far away from my loved ones. I am incomplete but I still can feel happiness. Now I can understeand how living isolated and bad moments can destroy everything in ourselves: good will, positive attitude, even undestroyable friendships. At the first glace, it looks like everything's gone, that we are living in an empty and cold dark castle, but, at a second and deeper glance, later, we discover that those things were not really gone, but just hiding from our unispired and tired glance. 

After a lot of thinking about what to do with our future, we looked like mice trapped in a cage. Certain destructive people really almost achieved their goal. We were literally trapped. But we called it a day and gave up. Gave up being around those destructive people, gave up being exploited in a job that was filled with ignorance, gave up being the mice we turned in. No more. It was more than enough and my faith in humanity was almost lost. But then again, life is rather surprising and on the next couple of months I and my dearest mother Odete had two one way tickets to Helsinki! Risky, I know, but compairing to what we have been through last few years, what the hell, why not? Our life was as bad is it can get and to reach a fulfilling life and happiness we need to make risky choices. May 2nd was the schedualled day. We went away, leaving loved ones behind.

It was a rough trip, with lots of turbulence ( I mean literally!), but we finally got here, with our luggage broken and sick. At midnight we arrived to Helsinki Vantaa Airport and met Laura, a dear friend. I was really happy to meet her and she was really a sweetheart for bringing cat litter sand! Thank you for that one!!

Then went by taxi to Lilja's place. Lilja is my boss here, she gave me an opportunity to show what I value, something that no one in my own country ever did, and that hurts. Makes me think that in Portugal people are really very scared to risk anything, they are too destructive. Of course not all people are like that, I met here some portuguese people that are something else! Really nice people. Well, perhaps was my bad luck while living in Portugal not to cross paths with such nice people.

Talking about Lilja, she is one of the most amazing people I have ever met. Period. 

She is a politician, she is a spectacular designer, she has a very good english and japanese, she is beautiful and she has quite an extraordinary personality. She is also an amazing cooker! How can someone do so many things at the same time and still be perfect doing it all? Well, I really don't know, but the answer is: Lilja Tamminen! 

I also want to thank to my friend Arto, who is really a sweet and fun person! He really helped me a lot and still does! Helps me feel confortable and at home here in Finland, he is such a bright and very intelligent person! I look up to him!

Last but not least, at all, is my karate sensei Tiago Pedroso. He is one of the best people I have ever met. I feel proud that we can hang out and learn karate with him! He also gave us a chance to feel at home here, not feeling so alone and to exercise!! He is also a person I personally admire, Obrigada! His girlfriend Matleena is also a very beautiful and heart-warming young girl, I really thank all this people for helping me here!

Perhaps many people don't get it, but just some kind words of support and advice and a felt hearted smile can help a lot. At least for me, it does. 

Thank you all, my friends!

I also want to say to my friends and family in Portugal that I miss them like hell, thank you for the support!

This post is getting too long and boring for the reader, so, I will leave the "thank you's" for now, in spite of having more people that I still want to thank to!

I do not have a photograph machine, and it's very sad I cannot get to share with you all the beauty I've been seeing all this days. I really love the nature beauty of this country, I think people are really nice and warm, lot's of beautiful smiles! I have always been a positive person, but sometimes I just could not help but being gloomy. Here there is a strange spark in the air that pulls me out from sadness and makes me act very positive, which makes me very happy! I hope Arto can give me the pictures he took of us, when he develops his film! (Yes, analog photography rules guys!!)

I will try on the next post not being so dull and deep, will try to explore the fun side of somethings that happen to me on a daily basis! I will now keep updating my blog!

I hope Ella does too, because I really miss to read her posts, and she is also living abroad, in Madrid, and I would love to hear more things via blog! From what we have been talking, she has some fun material to do lots of interesting posts. So I will keep hoping for "The Puppet Show" to return!

Thanks everyone, I hope you have a very nice Sunday!

Cheers and Blessed be!

Mood: Hopeful and Happy

Song: Nightwish - The Crow, The Owl And The Dove

Versailles Concert Review

Greetings Earthlings!

First of all, as I promised, I will write the review for Versailles concert!
I attended to Versailles Madrid concert, on the 4th October 2011 (holy grail european tour).


The concert was amazing! Versailles Spanish Street Team made a very good work with numbered tickets, we got the 200 - 205. Entering the venue was quite fast and easy because of this proccess. So, as a public member I thank the spanish street team for this proccess, otherwise it would be a bit rough, like in every concert when everyone tries to get in at the same time to go to the front row. The show started not much after the public entered. 
The members entered on stage, one by one, with the intro we are used to, while we sing along "WE ARE VERSAILLES"! 
Then, of course, first song was MASQUERADE. I noticed right away that the sound arrangement was a little poor, but got really emotional over seeing Versailles again, and MASQUERADE is such a perfect song to begin! Then it was ASCENDEAD MASTER which is one of my personal favourites... It kinda makes me remind Jasmine Yuu, I think we all, Versailles fans feel his presence watching the band from above... Then Kamijo talked with the audience in a good MC, I think his english has improved a lot! Then, it was time to play Judicial Noir and Thanatos followed. Then, the boys went out of stage for a bit. After a short break they came back to play Destiny - The Lovers - which almost made my cry, soberb performance and perfect song <3.
Then the band left the stage again. Afterwards Kamijo came back alone, to sing Love will be born again, was a very touching and beautiful performance. 
Then, they played Threshold and DRY ICE SCREAM followed. Then another MC, and, started playing my absolute favourite song, Libido. Loved Kamijo dancing xD
They ended the first part with Vampire and The Red Carpet Day. The band left the stage and we all yelled "Encore"!
They came back to play Remember Forever, and of course, Philia! I specially enjoyed the performances of this two songs, absolutely gorgeus! Then, they went away again, and of course, came back to play The Revenant Choir!
In my opinion, the concert was perfect dispite the poor sound quality. 
After the show, we got out of the venue to queue again, for the meet and greet. I was really nervous at the handshaking but Versailles are really sweethearts. At the end, thanks to Mayumi, the portuguese street team and the spanish roses could meet Versailles! It was really unforgetting experience... I am really happy I could finally meet! 
Sorry if my review is kinda poor, it happens I am rather sick with a flu at home, so my brain is not really functioning fully.
If someone who attented the concert have some correction to make, please feel free and tell me! 
I want to credit the awesome Spanish Street Team for I seen the setlist on their Twitter. Thank you!!


It's all by now! Thanks for reading!

New motivation! WE ARE VERSAILLES!

Greetings earthlings!

It's been several months without posting in my almost abandoned blog.
To be sincere, we have been struggling a bit here with our new life... It's been a bit difficult to get on our feet but it's all worthy.

Me and dearest Ella in the queue for the concert!

Between switching jobs, new job interviews, tours all around the city to find a new job, finally we got a very "mini" vacations! 
It was a bliss admist tough days! 
I can't explain how great, how awesome it was meeting the band! Been dreaming about this for years and finally I got to meet them, and got a marvellous big and sweet hug from Hizaki! (*w*)

Our 5 star crew! Visual Jam & Portuguese Versailles Street Team! <3

Well this will be a quite rapid post, so, it's just to express my happiness to whom wants to read it! I was really missing having a good time with my friends and an excelent concert! 


I will write a review soon enough about the awesome concert! 


I deeply thank Mayumi, Versailles and the Spanish Street Team. The spanish roses were very good professionals and were so nice! Thank you so much!! We are Versailles!

Our shoes in the airport 2 o'clock in the morning! We were so tired. Heh~

~ Oyasumi nasai ~

Good Will Towards Each Other?

Greetings Earthlings!

Somehow, it's a strange feeling to be back to the blogosphere again... As I referred in my last post, I was living admist a tortuous storm, that is finally over. Now that I am living in Gaia, I have been thinking about the way things happened and why. I thought, thought and thought (quoting BaRu,,) and I realized I was living in a well... A well of shades. I felt I was drowning in a cold, abandoned and dark place, and the ones who witnessed that and tried to help the most was Ella and BaRu,,. I really want to thank them, from the bottom of my heart, for they are the best friends anyone can have... Miss you guys more than ever, it's almost unbearable no to see you everyday like we used to.

Having the parents divorcing is never an easy issue, but my experience was really troublesome and sad, thanks to my father. Blaming me for the divorce and not talking to me was a really sad choice but I cannot do anything related to that, I just have to let this dwell in the past and forget.

Anyhow, the thing I will talk in today's post is what shocked me the most amongst all this changeling: The selfishness and egoistic behaviour of some people.

Once again I wonder "What's wrong with humanity?"

Where is the pure love? Good will toward each other? Where is helping without expecting nothing in return? Why must we love someone thinking about material things? We live in a disposable world, and people are slowly becoming disposable too. I am aware that money is one of the most important things in one's life, for we, unfortunatly can't live without it, if you want to live with dignity of course... But, I can't seem to agree with extremes. People seem to think now a days that money is everything, and that everything is buyable. Wrong. So wrong. Where are the values we must have as human beings? Humanity seem to have forgotten about that we are the only rational animal. Honestly, I think even a cat is becoming more rational that most people I know. I hope someday people realize that they can't eat money, for their own sakes. Sincerely, I think there is no future for us, because men kind has destroyed everything we had that was good. I am a proudly pagan, and harmony, helping each other and uniterested love are my main goals, as I try the most living by those patterns. I can say I am different from most people, what about you? 

I want to leave now all the bitterness behing, because I am starting my own healing proccess here, but I still want to thank a lot to the few people who helped me with a kind word. 

I finally feel happy, calm, and finally feel like I have a home to return to, not being unwelcomed on somebody's else place. 

What is your opinion about the evolution of men kind? 

Thank you for reading, and I want to apologize my readers for the long absence.

Dies Irae

photo taken in Arrábida 

Greetings Earthlings!

I have been away from sometime now, been extra busy and these days left in me kind of a bittersweet taste. First of all, I want to deeply thank Ella for doing my blog's newest "make-up", it's really amazing, thank you so so much!

I am really tired and fed up with the life I am taking here, between days that have been a living nightmare I find my haven with my best friends, Kiaiku, Odete, Ella and BaRu,,. Thank you guys for these amazing days you are giving me, in order to escape inner and outter chaos.

Soon, soon enough I think I will be able to break this chains and be happy again, fully happy and move on with my life. Parents divorcing is somehow complicated for children, even if we are adults... Even more when one of the parents think you are the one to blame for everything.

Yesterday was BaRu,,'s birthday, a very happy and exciting day! I hope we can celebrate together all of your birthdays!! He had two cakes and much much attention from all of us!

We had dinner together on a very cozy restaurant and went drinking in a pub, here in Setúbal, in spite of being simple, it was great time together!

I promise to my special one that I will be always with him, and support him achieving his goals and dreams... and yes, you will have you special guitar! <3 

Despite this "Dies Irae", I thank the gods I have the strenght and the love from this amazingly beautiful people that I can, thankfully call friends and family! 

In sum, I LOVE YOU GUYS! <3

photo: Me & Ella

Mata Ne!

Got Better Indeed!

Greetings Earthlings!

 picture: Beautiful postcard and Dahlias my dearest friend Aiko offered me!

It's been a month since my surgery, and I surely got better! I spent three days on the clinic, had a very nice room and nice nurses, but still, was a very rough time. Unable to find one suitable vein with a kind large syringe to pour the anesthesia, nurses did an horrible job trying to do that, so, in the end I ended up with several bruises on my hands, wrists and arms. A whole month after, my hands still hurt when touched.


I have to thank from the bottom of my heart to my dearest friends and family for the support. I have to thank my family for supporting all the process I was constantly in nausea on the clinic, my mother, who was with me the whole three days, I cannot ever find words to thank you enough. I also have to thank Kiaiku, Ella and Baru who visited me everyday! Last, but not least, I want to thank Aiko, Isis and Pikii for being so kind and visit me when I was home, but still really sore, and giving a cute postcard with such kind words written, and those beautiful Dahlias I love so dearly. We have no idea of how many neck muscles we move to do things as sit, lay down or get up. I had to learn how to do it without forcing my neck muscles, using my arms and legs only, it was kinda rough. In spite of what people said to me, the after surgery was really painful and difficult. I vomited all the time, barely could swallow, so, no eating for several days, nausea, neck and back hurt.


Well, but now I am almost 100% restored and I started losing some weight, which is good.
Best of all, I got my get well gift from BaRu,, the single "Yume Kagari" by Brother, so, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.


Kiaiku is doing support guitar for Karuniiru this two gigs, so, please, on Febuary 26th, saturday, please come to their gig on Revolver Bar in Cacilhas, it's a contest, and the winner will get to play in Spain! I hope to see you all there!


So, at last, the return of those who never left, Visual Jam!
We will be trowing a "jukebox" party on March 12th, Saturday, so, people, make your requests on Visual Jam facebook page, here: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Visual-Jam/180652468642848

Only 19 likes? Come on people!! Also, I want to see more requests!

My Dahlias are still alive, me and my mother are taking good care of it, so it won't wither anytime soon!

My new addiction:

I love Kuroyume so much! <3

Brand new page?

Well, tomorrow I will be undergoing to surgery.

I have waited two long years for this, so I hope it will be the turn of the page of this book named "Life".


I will get my thyroid removed which is the main reason of my weight problem!


I am pretty calm today, and I have a very special token from a friend that I am sure will be my guardian!


So, wish me luck!

Oyasumi and Blessed be

I really love this song and hope to get this single as a "Get better" present xDD:

New year... New Horizons!!

Ella, Dj Khimaira and me @ Covill Bar, Almada

Greetings earthlings!

I hope everyone had great holydays! It's been more than a month I don't post here, it's really becoming a bad habbit. 


So, how was everyone's Christmas? 
Well, I can't say mine was bad, but I think it was the worse ever. This year I didn't felt the festive spirit at all and it was the first time I did not spend it with my family which makes a huge difference. I was in Porto celebrating it with the "in-laws" and got really good presents!
Got plenty of books which made me happy. I am always reading something and I am not capable of living without having a book by my side, I am quite the "bookworm"!!
About New Year's Eve it was one of the funniest!! We partied at my place, Visual Jam staff and Isis, was a blast!! They got to sleep over for two nights which was amazingly funny!!


Well, I am going to talk about year 2010!


The year 2010 was a bliss next to 2009, because we got so much more stable and sure of what we really want to do. Year 2009 best part was Japan, only. Lots of conflicts and things I do wish didn't happened, but it did, and we do not possess the hability to turn back time, so, we just have to accept and live with it. 2010 was so much more smooth, we did amazing things that we never thought we could and had the chance to meet excelent new people!

Here are the 2010 highlights:

• Visual Jam evolved a lot since it's creation, around December 18th 2009, making a total of 5 events this year! I guess we are the first doing something like this in one year, once again, I really want to thank portuguese Visual kei fans for the support, without you, it wouldn't be possible! 
• First Visual kei concert in Portugal, held by el-Ethnic Legist- on September 11th at Santiago Alquimista, Lisbon. The atmosphere was magical, the fans were the best public ever and the show was amazing! Thank you eveyone!
• The appearence Kiaiku made as guest artist for el-Ethnic Legist- made me really proud of him as an artist and guitarist. He did a terrific job, beyond words!
• Meeting Khimaira, who is a fascinating person, became one of my best friends. Thank you for the priceless moments we spent together and for your sincere support and friendship!!
• Becoming even closer to the people that I love the most and know they are always there for me. Without them, I couldn't make it. It's being too rough, I would have sunk, but you were always my safety boat... I have no words to express my gratitude and love for you guys... United forever, as one!
• First DJ Khimaira debut performance in Portugal. The party was a blast, we are working so the public can have more parties like that.

Wishes for 2011:

• Keep Visual Jam rocking as hard as possible!
• Debuting more Visual kei bands in Portugal.
• Find some shitty job to procceed to the next step of my life.
• Stay close to the people I love the most, strong.
• Have a safe surgery and recover fast!
• Lose some weight after surgery and with the right medication.
• Write a little more, short stories and stuff, I am always underestimating myself, but I guess I should at least give it a try!
• Do a new tattoo, my blue star.
• Pierce my lip. (Snake bites!!)
• Some more secretive plans, but it will be known!

So, I guess this is everything about the holidays and wishes.

We have been watching all Rocky's saga, and I found the films rather inspiring. Made me wish my fate would be just like Rocky Balboa: Fight, and go from the bottom to the top!!

Today I was told the zodiac signs would change, for there is one more sign to add, which would make every sign dates different. What do you think about that subject? 

Do you believe in astrology?

Finally, my new year's wish for you all:

May the gods be with you and guide everyone to a safe and successful path! 

Wind of Change?

Here I am, back to my almost abandoned blog. 
After two months and five days without posting here I am, with some questions and thoughts I would love to share with all my readers!


But first of all, I would like to thank everyone who were there in the Visual Jam Halloween party! It was so so crowded! I have no words to thank you guys for the support, and I hope to see you all again on Visual Jam's First Birthday Ceremony, on the 17th, with a very special guest deejaying, DJ Khimaira @ Covil Bar.

Here is the flyer, I think it is very lovely:

Well, moving to what really moved to make this post, I really need a "wind of change". Well, I guess the whole world needs it. I don't mean to be offensive, but, in my point of view, society is getting rotten. I worry about young people mostly. I see no respect what so ever for other people (so much for respecting elderly people, that one is already a mith). I see hatred, people stabbing on each other backs, stepping on the feet of everyone to reach something they want without getting there first. 

What is wrong with humanity?

I know humans were always selfish and greedy... But this? This is beyond unthinkable!
To hear young people wishing someone else they don't even know was dead, disrespecting anyone who just gave an opinion, being aggressive and insult over nothing... It leaves me mesmerized, in the worst way possbile.


I've studied from 5th to 12th grades in troublesome schools, the kind of school some people often could call "ghetto school". It was pretty rough, specially when I was younger, but I understood it doesn't matter status, "race" or rich or poor. Most of people there were not rich at all, they had troublesome lifes in home and of course, at school too. But guess what? They were much nicer, more polite and sincere than most youngsters I see babbling on Facebook now a days. Back then people had values, now a days it seems to be vanished. 


I really cannot point the finger to anyone, I just think technology messed really bad with people's head. Most young people don't care for anything besides their computer with speedy internet connection. Don't get me wrong, I am no technophobic or something, I do appreciate the world of internets and pcs, but my life is much more than that. I do NOT hide behing a computer screen trolling and mocking every living soul I see on a social network. That is so WRONG people. I think those people really have self-esteem problems, they just don't accept themselves as they are, and they jump trolling other people for making up their flaws. It does NOT work. A person who has values, believes in her/himself will not pay any attention to it, as you do. My point here is not to attack anyone, just to express my pity for those kind of people and sincerely hope they grow, hope they get some values and love anything with their heart, not just because it is cool or because their friends do.


Another alarming sign that this society is falling to pieces is the obsession about "looking good". It's not just you thinking you look good. You have really straight patterns now a days to define beauty. 21st Century beauty is what you see on lingerie catalogues. 21st Century beauty are the men and women you see in billboards advertising for some fashion brand. 21st Century beauty is Photoshop. It's enough to open some women targeted magazine you have pages and pages about dissing celebrities, in order to make "ordinary" women feel guilty, like: "She lost a lot of weight and has the perfect waist now", "She just had a baby and is so fit" or "She gained a lot of weight, she really needs to visit the gym". In my head I just think: "What the hell?!" My point of view on this subject: I think if someone really wants to fit the pattern of society and diets and exercises to death is their business, if they feel good and beautiful/handsome doing so, it's really okay. But those people who are not the perfect role model and do not intend to be (like me) please, just leave us alone. Sentences like "Oh you got fatter", "You should really lose some weight" or "You are way more than chubby, fat is not beautiful" are not helpfull, or good intentioned or happily taken! So if you have something like that to say, just say to yourself, in front of your mirror, in your home. PLEASE DO NOT BOTHER OTHER PEOPLE THAT JUST DON'T GIVE A DAMN.
Well I feel good about myself. Yes, I am more than chubby. I am what you consider a fat girl. So what? 
Tipic trolling on street, social network, etc:
"You are fat!!" 
"Yes I am. So what?"
"You look huge!" 
"Yes, I am fat, you wanted me to look thin?"
Do you think it lowers my self esteem any tiny bit? Oh you are so wrong. This is what a confident person looks like. It does not take me down, I see my own beauty, if you don't see it, oh, too bad, but I am not spending the night crying over it, sorry. 
Concluding this, you calling me fat is the exact same thing you saying to me that the sky is blue. It's simply a fact!


The last thing I am going to talk about tonight, the third sign I see about the self desctruction of mankind is the "agnostic" point of view. Most people no longer believe in anything. It's scary to me, because I always had a faith, always been told that when everything is dark, hope and faith will, eventually get us out of there. I am pagan for seven years now, but this faith always was such an important part of myself. 
The thing I mostly search for it's not happiness. It's Balance. Because, without a balanced life and values, I believe no one reaches happiness. Because balance is the strong base for being happy. I cannot consider myself a fortunate person, lately things are not going well at all for me, which makes me feel really sad and depressed and think about what's wrong with me, and what is wrong with humanity. Because the way things are built now a days, it is suffocating, ripping us off of any possibility reaching happiness. But I will not let myself be down, I will go up and on my way searching for the perfect balance for my life, and my friends will always be there, so I am really thankful to the gods!

What do you think on this subject?

Would love to read your opinion on this!

Oyasumi and Blessed Be!

Masquerade of the Dead: An Halloween Reverie

Greetings!

Came here to announce next Visual Jam event!

Masquerade of the Dead: An Halloween Reverie, it will take place on the 31st October (obviously), which is a Sunday. It's okay, Monday is an holyday, so you can rest if you drink too much or stay up late!! xD

So, there will be a few surprises, I hope you will like it!

With DJ/VJ Kiaiku, as usual!

This will be a short post, for I have a few things to do, and cannot linger...

And this is how I feel...

Enough said...

Mata ne and Blessed Be!

Dreamland for a While

Greetings Earthlings!

Even though life mostly of times is to harsh on us, this time it seems things are getting smother and easier, at least from my point of view! It seems that, for once in my life things are not being too difficult. I do not know why I always feel life is too hard on me... Perhaps it's just me, I never have seen myself as a spoiled girl or anything, despite being an only child. Just sometimes I wish I was a bit luckier, but this time yes, I can consider myself a lucky person. All our plans are going fine, and going to happen with our own effort and tears, we will not just pretend we make things happen. We REALLY make things happen.


To be surrounded of such wonderful people, such wonderful friends. It is impossible to ask for more, even in the most dredful situation we can pull it out together.
Thank you guys for being more than friends, for creating a bond stronger than blood. Love you! <3

Subject #1

Male. Species found 7 years ago, October 2003. At first very shy, nervous and quiet, but, while being fed and took care of, starts speaking and smiling. 6 Years later he, along with other 5 subjects started the greatest organization of all times, named Visual Jam, and gave us the means to make the magic happen!! 7 Years later is a pain in the ass because he is never ever quiet! Subject number one is like my older brother and the best friend anyone can have! Love you!

Subject #2

Female. Species found 7 years ago, around December 2003. At first warrior pose, but while interacting is very talkative. So much talkative and loud. 6 Years later, she, along with other 5 subjects started the greatest organization of all times, named Visual Jam, and borrowed us the magic of words! 7 Years later she is more than a sister, more than a friend, more than anything that could ever be described by words, she is so precious! Love you!

Subject #3

Male. Species found 3 years ago, around September 2007. At first very closed and quiet, but while intimate very joyfull and playful. Subject has great talent in music area, plays piano, guitar and sings wonderfully. 2 Years later, he along with other 5 subjects started the greatest organization of all times, named Visual Jam, and gave us the knowledge and strenght necessary to make the magic happen! 3 Years later he is my more than anything, more than a friend, more than the single word Love can ever mean. He's my saviour angel! Love you!

Subject #4

Female. Species found 22 years ago, around November 1988. At first very playful and cheerful. Subject turned out to be very clever in the pshycology field. 21 years later entered the greatest organization of all times, named Visual Jam and gave us her beautiful taste to make up magic images! 22 years later she is the one that has always been around, my blood sister! Love you!

Subject #5

Female. This subject was the one that gave birth to me. Has been around for a while and always there to back me up from everything. I am deeply grateful to Subject #5 because she helped to make the person I am now. Dangerously funny and ironic, if you don't want to laugh hard, please don't come near Subject #5! She is the person who will make you have the funniest time of your life with Epic phrases. Yeah, "aqui há broche"... Can you guess? "Já me tinhas era tell me!". Love you! 

Can anyone guess which subject corresponds to a Visual Jam staff member? 

Love you all with my heart!!!

Visual Jam has more surprises in the sleeve, please, stay tunned for more beautiful news very, very soon! Thank you everyone who has been around and worked for this becoming reality! I will leave you a beautiful song that really has touched me and reminds me of someone special!!

Mata ne and Blessed Be!

凛 RIN - As if Forever Exists

凛 Rin - As If Forever Exists

The prince with marvellous eyebrows will soon arrive on a dark beautiful horse! (^_~)

Little Piece of Heaven

11th September, Saturday.

This is my point of view of days 11th and 12th of September 2010.

I woke up early in the morning, haven't slept almost anything at all. I was nervous as hell because it was one of the more important days of my life. The dream had came true: Visual Jam would bring the first Visual kei band to our small country. Visual Jam is a project that had high costs since it was born, December 2009. We have worked with all our hearts and souls, against all odds. It was harder than I ever thought, but nobody said it would be easy.

We all got ready to head to Lisbon, in order not to be late, I guess it was the longest trip to Lisbon I've ever made. I was scared to death that things would not go according to our plan.

Well, it did not went 100% according to planned but we managed to make everything go right!

We arrived to the airport and waited for a very long (for me at least) one hour and thirty minutes aprox., and asked for informations why the band was taking so long to get out, the responsible there told us that there was no chance someone of that flight could still be inside, for everyone else had left, that sentence sent me to a short living hell. Every sort of disaster crossed my mind. But after a blessed phone call we could rest a bit, it was a problem with the special luggage, was a really bad event but at least they were okay and arrived safely to Portugal.

We met the guys, Mori and Lauriane, and I loved them all in that very instant! Just felt they were really good people and really deserved to be treated very very well! 

They went in the truck with two members of Visual Jam, Ella and Kiaiku, and me and BaRu,, got lost in the way from the airport to the venue, it was terrible hot but finally we could manage to arrive there, even with the car dripping a lot of gasoline! (x_x)

The majority of the people who attended the concert were already waiting outside the venue, felt really great to see all those familiar and friendly faces there, to support us, almost six years hours before the start of the show, I deeply want to thank you, beside being friends you are such spectacular fans!

When me and Ella went to Karuniiru's/Visual Jam's backstage we realized it was hot as hell. We could barely breathe there, because sunlight directly aimed the place. After making sure the guys had everything arranged in their backstage, it was time to start doing Karuniiru's make up! It was really painful for me and Ella because of the heat! We still got to assist a bit of el-Ethnic Legist- sound check, it was so amazing!! 

When I got back to the upper backstage again, the hours did fly! After doing make up to Karuniiru with Ella's help, I had to do the make up to Kiaiku. Unfortunatly I just got to see the last two songs Karuniiru played and saw that we were expecting more that the people that were in the room, later I knew that 66 people attended the show excluding organization and invitations which was a very good number by the manager's opinion. I want to thank the people who attended the show so much, you made the FIRST Visual kei band concert in Portugal possible! 

el-Ethnic Legist-'s concert was amazing, one of the best concerts I've ever attended, along with Versailles. If I could I would do anything for the band to grow and become a big band, in Japan and Europe! They are as great as a japanese major label band!

I was so happy when I saw Kiaiku on stage with the band, one of his dreams finally came true, and I shed some tears. It was extremely emotional. I loved the fans feedback about the band and Kiaiku, the true fans were really so so kind! I really thank you from the bottom of my heart. 

The rest of the night was as funny as it could get, loved to talk to the guys, the manager Mori and Lauriane, really good people!

We had a really nice traditional birthday cake with the picture of the band, that they loved.

We sang "happy birthday" to the band, and we did it in Portuguese! We gave them the presents of the winners of Visual Jam free ticket contest, and they absolutely loved it!

Thank you so much for having put your effort and will to do such beautiful art works!

For the next day, I won't write all the details because is personal!

I just have to thank all the guys for giving me a little piece of heaven for two days, because life is really hard here, and you just made us forget what it was like!

I have to personally thank Mr. Mori, really loved to talk with you, and I would love to keep in touch!

Next time we will get more familiar Shin, and drink 3 coffees a day!! (^-^)/

See you soon!

LOVE YOU GUYS, YOU MADE THIS UNFORGETABLE! 

ありがとうございましたエスレジ！

Mata ne and Blessed Be!